Confessions of a new mom

As Maddox turned 3 months old today, I reflected back on the past 90 days and realized how far I have come in such a short time. It has been a bit of an adjustment, to say the least. I think that people do new moms an injustice by always telling them "motherhood is the most amazing thing in the world!!!!!XXX@@@@!!!!" Now, don't get me wrong, it IS the most amazing thing in the world but it takes some time to get there! No one told me there would be days that I would have puke in my hair before the sun came up. They forgot to mention that babies cry an average of four hours a day. FOUR HOURS!! I wasn't prepared for the fleeting feelings of jealousy when my baby free friends would stop by, hold the baby, and hand the baby back when he started crying. No one could have prepared me for the absolute heartbreak I would experience when my best efforts to just breastfeed my child did not work out. I thought I was going to kick the baby blues in the a** but there I was, crying in the shower, crying because I didn't like my bassinet, crying while trying to sing Baby Beluga...lol yeah I was a nut. For the record I've only locked myself in the bathroom once and I'm daggone proud of that!!! But then.........








No one could have prepared me for the love I would feel for this child. When I look into those precious blue eyes that came from me and see this person that has a piece of my soul...oh my. the love. There is nothing I wouldn't do for this baby. I get down on my knees every night beside his crib and THANK GOD for allowing me the honor to be his mom. I don't care if there is puke in my hair. I don't care if he cries a million hours. Maddox, we can party anytime of the day or night that you want to - even if it is 3 am. I love him so much it hurts. Happy 3 month birthday my sweet baby boy