Lovebug?

When I was pregnant and found out that I would be having a little boy, all I ever heard was "ohhhh your gonna have a mama's boy, he will be all yours!"

WRONG

Now don't get me wrong, my little Maddox is a ray of sunshine, but a lovebug he is not. My child will walk into a dark room, turn around and shut the door behind him and go off exploring. He squirms if you try to kiss him for more than a second, and truly does not slow down all day. My heart aches for some quiet snuggle time with my little boy but he has other plans in mind. And that is ok.

Because he is intelligent, hysterical, active, fiercely independent, and brave. And when he does give me sugar, its that much sweeter.

XOXO Maddox, Love Mom

Happy Birthday!!

Ok, so I can't get all sentimental with this post or I will surely turn into a blubbering mess. So Maddox Eli, I decided to write my 10 favorite things about you:

1. You share my love of music - no kiddie songs for you, no way - I love to look in the rearview mirror and see you jamming with your hands waving in the air to Mumford and Sons, Audioslave, Neil Young and Johnny Cash - it must have been all the days you spent in my belly listening to that music while I drove around seeing patients

2. You are just tall enough that your head barely peeks over the crib, but it's so cute, and as tired/grumpy/sleep deprived as I may be when I walk in your room to get you out of bed the sight of your little face peeking over just makes me smile

3. Your fat feet!! I could eat them! Enough said

4. Every picture, anywhere, of anyone, is "Dada"

5. You are soooo all boy, or "full of piss and vinegar" as my family would say

6. You love spinach, with vinegar, just like your daddy

7. You actually love just about any kind of food, just like your daddy

8. You loooovvvveeee your daddy

9. Your blue eyes, which came from me, and I could stare into forever...

10. The simple fact that you are mine, and home is wherever I'm with you.

I love you

Daylight Savings

Give a girl a sunny spring day and what will she do? She might just put her aviators on and load her lil fam up in the car for a day at the park!

The sweetest boy, the sweetest shoes

Fancy Schmancy New Cam

My Gerber Baby

Well, I saved any extra money I had for a few months stashed in my sock drawer and had two things on my mind: A new camera or Christian Louboutin shoes. As much as I want a pair of those heavenly shoes the mama in me just couldn't bear to be that selfish. Needless to say I have a new Canon camera and I'm super excited to post lots of pics of Mad Mo!!

Don't worry my darling shoes...you are next!!!

STEELERS!!!!

LETS GO!!!!!!!!!!!!

Faith

"For truly, I say to you, if you have faith like a grain of mustard seed, you will say to this mountain, ‘Move from here to there,’ and it will move, and nothing will be impossible for you.”
Matthew 17:20


My heart has been heavy the past few weeks, and I've spent many quiet minutes praying for a young man fighting for his life as well as a man who gracefully exited his, although it was much too soon. When I gave birth to Maddox, I literally had a mustard seed in the pocket of my hospital gown. I know that the Lord can heal bodies and broken hearts, and I will continue to pray for the Morgan and Rinehart families.

Jan 2, 2011

Missing her today and always...

Merry Christmas 2010

Where to even begin...I don't know if I can attach words to the experience of Maddox's first Christmas. All I have heard for the past several weeks is how much I was gonna enjoy this year, and trust me I did. We started off the festivities when my mama arrived the day before Christmas Eve, and didn't stop until now. It's amazing how a little jammied babe can bring families together, both old and new. We had so many delicious meals, and Maddox made sure he kept everyone entertained. Although someone was forever missing, she wasn't forgotten. It was........wonderful.


Maddox and Me


Santa's cookies - my favorite Christmas thumbprint cookies


It looked like a tornado had hit


Nona hand knitted this hat





This was his signature smile for the weekend - hammin it up big time


This shows how active my boy is - I'm lucky to get a still shot of him, and most pics end up like this, a blur


A blast from the past. Merry Christmas Everyone!

Tha 'Burg

I just came home from a very awesome weekend with some besties - Maddox stayed behind (sniff sniff) but it was honestly really good to get away and have some adult time. Matt and I went to Pittsburgh for the weekend to visit Megs and Doug. Matt had never been there before so we did some sightseeing, ate lots of good food, but most importantly we went to the Steelers game to watch Doug! It was so exciting!! Since we moved back from Memphis I'd forgotten what living in a big city feels like - it's like you can actually feel the energy of all the people buzzing around you - it's infectious! We barely beat the snow back and now I'm all cozied in my house drinking hot chocolate with cool whip...more pics of the trip to come ~

December

Taking a week off of work to stay at home was the best decision I've made in a long time! I've so enjoyed all the fun things I've been doing - shopping, wrapping, peeling, chopping, tasting, sipping, baking...but most importantly spending time with the mad man. Every night I hold on to his jammied body just a little longer before I tuck him in and I thank the Lord for choosing me to be his mom. Today I actually got to do something that has been talked about for years now but I never had the time - I spent the day doing a cookie party! Everyone made different cookies and at the end of the day I came home with tons of delicious Christmas cookies. Aaaaahhhh the holidays...I'm soaking it up this year

Happy Holidays!

Our little family has been busy lately - it all feels like a whirlwind. We've had Mama's 50th birthday bash in Raleigh, Halloween, Thanksgiving, and we're on our way to Christmas! Matt and I spent all day Saturday decorating the house and putting our tree up and I was so excited for Maddox to see it but....he just wants to chew on the branches. Go figure. I've got a week of vacation and last minute I decided to stay home and just relax, focus on my baby and enjoying the holidays

Maddox and Daddy - Daddy had too much turkey...

The cutest little monkey you ever did see

Mama blew out 50 candles....Shhhh....







Me and my Golden Boy (if you look closely, you will see the Christmas Tree Creeper aka Rocco)

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Bad blogger...

So I never have time to blog. What a surprise huh. I was going through old photos, and even though this one is blurry its one of my faves - my belly was so big!

Warning: Waterworks

This sweet family suffered the ultimate loss, but their story is inspiring. Every single day that we have with our children is a blessing! Warning - I cried so hard after watching this that I scared Maddox
http://www.oprah.com/oprahshow/Remembering-Eliot-The-99-Balloons-Video

I'm in trouble...

This picture says it all - I mean look at that arched eyebrow! He is already brewing up disasters I can just feel it...

Happy Fall!

Innocence

While I was home sick last week, I had lots of time to flip through the channels on tv. I watched reruns of the 2010 VMA awards, which is something that I normally wouldn't have had the time to watch. I was strangely intrigued and inspired by a song that Taylor Swift sang. I say strangely because usually I'm more of an Audioslave, Godsmack kinda girl and not so much Taylor Swift but this truly was a beautiful song. It's alledgedly aimed at Kanye West and his antics at last years VMA's but that's neither here nor there. She sings about childhood, mistakes, forgiveness, and innocence and it just got me to thinking. About my childhood. About Maddox. Pondering the meaning of innocence, where it begins and ends and before I get too deep I will just say this. I am inspired, as a mother, to make Maddox's childhood magical. Like mine was. We are gonna read stories. Make forts in the living room with pillows and blankets and have Saturday morning cartoons. And Sunday morning chocolate chip pankcakes. We're gonna bake cookies for Santa and write him letters too. And go on adventures outside in the woods and save teeth for the tooth fairy. In the summer we'll catch firefly's and camp outside in the backyard and tell ghost stories. I will zip his puffy little snowjacket up to his chin and we will build snowmen. We will look for the pot of gold at the end of the rainbow and he will be Superman. Because one day he will be 12, 18, 24, 32...and he may feel so small in a big world that isn't so nice sometimes. And there will be nothing I can do to protect him from that. So for now, he is innocent, and he will believe in everything.

Missing my baby...

As I write this post, it has been 3 days since I have touched my baby. 3 DAYS!!! I am very sick with pneumonia and Maddox has been staying with his Mimi and Nanny so that he won't catch it from me. The worst part about this of course is not being able to spend time with him. I cry when I even think of him!! He has been doing so many new things lately. His first official word: Dadadadada! Lol would it be anything else? He is eating baby food now and loves his fruits and veggies. He is trying so very hard to crawl and rolls all over the place. It is just amazing to watch a child grow and change before your eyes. Every single day there is something new. This little person is my world, my heart and soul.

And then there's you

And then there's you